Thursday, January 29, 2009

worry wart


I have been putting this off because I never know what to write. I read everyone else's blog daily and I love it, so here it goes. I have sucessfully turned in my nursing applications and will find out in April if I get in and I am having a little anxiety about it. I am trying not to but I can't help myself. My whole life depends on this stupid decision that in my experience is made by stupid people. On top of that, I have this fear that I forgot to do something or I did something wrong so they will throw my application out. For instance, my fears became a reality in the shower this morning when I realized that I had fogotten to put my internship on my resume. This may or may not be a big deal but I spent so much time messing with the stupid "templete" that I forgot to add it to my resume. Also, we also have a nursing student who was telling me how one of her recommendations was filled out wrong so she had to wait a year and reapply(because of someone else's mistake). Its these little things that are killing me. I have a fear of the unknown. I don't like leaving my life changing decisions to other people, is that so wrong? I didn't have this anxiety last year when I applied but I also secretly didn't want to get in(I needed a break). I am ready now so please, someone let me into nursing school(preferably the U, I REALLY REALLY don't want to drive to Ogden everyday). Thank you. Oh and if you tell me not to worry I am a shoe in, I know that already I just can't help myself. That is the end of my shpeil(sp?) thank you for reading.